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i feel like there has been so much wedding talk lately.
i got asked last night how i would like to be proposed to
and i felt weird even answering that question.
i have this idea in my head that i know will never happen
and ill end up getting proposed to while eating chinese food or burritos or something.
it made me realize that maybe im not as ready as i always thought i was.
hmmm.

i feel bad

but i cant stand kev's dog.
i dont know what it is-i thought he was cute the night we picked him up. i dont know what happened after that. i cant stand that he climbs all over anything and everyone and does has he pleases. he obviously wasnt trained to do certain things otherwise he wouldnt jump and run on everything and people would just be able to let him out rather than tend to him every second of the day. thats just annoying.anyway, thats not the point of me writing this, the point was that i feel really bad for hating something that kevin likes so much. i know it makes him happy and thats the only thing that matters. i love kev but i cant wait til tuesday so i can get away from a lot of things that bother me in that house and im not just talking about the dog..

6 days and counting.

good grief.

i want to read old love letters from the war to see what romance used to be like.

or to see if romance even exists at all.

printer/scanner

if anyone-or who knows of anyone- who is getting rid of an old typewriter let me know.highly interested. thanks.



typewriter tip, tip, tip.

having the flu with nothing else to do...

lately i have been writing a lot
im not writing it down
im writing it up-
in my head










i need to start documenting everything
but im afraid to sometimes.
they always come back to haunt me later
and end up making me feel worse.

i think ive decided
im going to buy a mini journal today.

summer is finally here:)

this week i felt like my summer has officailly started.
monday i had work super early-be in at 645am til 1pm-which isnt bad at all.
afterward i rode to meet maggie in center city. grabbed a salad, hung out in rittenhouse, and did a little shopping. i bought a hoodie at h&m which was the only thing in there that i was interested in. they have really gone downhill. i feel like its not the same as it was four years ago. after that mags and i decided to grab a drink at marathon grill. i think we moved our seats there at least three times hahaha. we made an interesting list and drank some beers then julia and veronika met up with us. they addded to it too and we ordered a table full of drinks at 6:58 so we could get all of the 5-7 happy hour prices. they were THE worst drinks i think i have ever had. they werent mixed well let alone tasted normal. i think they were trying to get us to leave by making our drinks taste like shit. ughhhhhk. we all split up and julia and i headed back to her house-drunk as a skunk- on our bikes. im glad i didnt get hit. but i had fun just talking to her and listening to mest in her basement. julia rules.

tuesday i had work again

My first list of lists....

List of Summer 09:

kanoeing/tubing
cranberry bog
crystal cave
new york
beaches
research printmakers
small painting series
weird nj/pa things
boston?
nc?
complete book of lists
fill my ritas waterice card-TWICE
find a job!!!!
bbqs in the barrons

5:22am.

i dont think im ready for this
i dont think im ready for this
i dont think im ready for this




but i owe it to myself.

its feels so nice...

to be done for the semester
:)