Sunday, December 21, 2008

everything happened so fast and it made this year just fly by.

2008 started out with me being retarded and not really doing much for the entire month of January. Maggie and i's birthday party was awesome and that was the highlight of my January and took the stress of health related issues off my mind for a second. February was a blur but from what i remember i had spent about three to four days a week at the baby store and tried an assortment of depression and anxiety medications which all just made me feel worse-not to mention the other cocktail of meds i was on for other things. i had a lot of support from my girlfriends and they are the best for listening to me complain and try and make sense of something that just didn't.

i was let down in the beginning of 2008 by someone close to me and I did something that i had even disappointed myself in doing-which a lot of people hate me for but they don’t even know the half of it and never will. Everyone has opinions about other people and the decisions that they make even if they’re too ignorant to find out what really happened and even consider the reasons WHY things happen. But I don’t need to go into that now, let alone provide an explanation for my actions to anyone but of two people.

I fell in love three times this year and I’m thankful for every person who showed me love and who let me show it back.


SO-February I ended it with one and I met someone new who showed me my heart could only grow bigger. March was full of crème brulee. Went to a wedding with Lawl and hung out with her family in Virginia. Went to D.C. for the first time and had a fun time and an unforgettable experience. Had another trip to Baltimore which was so much fun and introduced me to seafood that I have always been so reluctant to try. I had an awesome Memorial Day that I spent at LBI which is my fav beach of all time. And I had my first Pirate Weekend experience of Maryland which was nothing less than awesome- you dress up as pirates and do pirate things all weekend- and do nothing but pirate activities, who WOULDN’T want that! And June=WALLE.


I guess April, may, June, and July, seem to run together to me because I was running around so much. I spent a lot of time in parks, eating chicken parm, dancing, enjoying being out of school, working at a new job, and learning how much I really do hate the northeast.

July I got a bff tattoo with Laurel of paper planes right before she moved away
:( but :) at the same time because I’m going to see her soon!

August the rollercoaster of emotions was put to an end and I went down to Georgia to visit laurel<3 and stopped to pick up my hedgehog SPLASHBOX along the way. What an awesome tripJ that alone is a blog itself. August I also went to Coney Island but everything was closed-and I know it’s a deathcab song but everything was really closed-and not a strip club in sight. September school started back up and I fell in love with my painting teacher blavat and printmaking all over again but struggled with art history, again. I’ve lost touch with a lot of friends this year but I don’t think that some of them realize how busy I have been. It’s hard when someone has nothing but school work and to be honest I worked all summer. Five days a week from the end of June to the beginning of August. This semester I just had to cut going out because I had to concentrate on school work and focus less on what I’m doing Friday and Saturday night, which I am usually working from 3-11pm anyway. It’s hard to try and manage everything without at least one person being disappointed in you that you’re not around but for once in my life I prioritized. Then goes October…I finally-FINALLY-paid off my credit card debt. Thank the Lord. It took forever for me to pay it off and I do not even know how I managed to do so considering it has been weighing above my head for about three or four years now. October was last September’s mirror image all over again with health related issues and I was a slice of cheese for Halloween. November I went to see alkaline trio play in Chicago but got bummed when they only played a 20minute set. Also got bummed when I saw Matt Skiba come out in white hipster jeans with black hipster suspenders attached, with a white hipster t-shirt, and a black chad hat. Hahahah Microsoft word told me that I should revise that because it was a fragment but I refuse. (plus its more of a ramble.) But Chicago was fun and expensive but worth it. It was my first time there. Then, I worked on Thanksgiving and had two styles of Thanksgiving dinner, one from my nan and one from the somm’s, brought to me which made my night.

And so that leaves me to December.

The radio was awesome this year and I developed a love for TI that I never thought I would ever have.

But my list of overall awesome things of 2008…

1. Splashbox aka sb t hh aka the little man

2. Walle

3. Trips.

4. Crème brulee

5. Crème brulee ben and jerry’s ice cream

6. More Bukowski in my life

7. Seeing Frank Iero play with Reggie

8. Frank Iero

9. Bayside

10. Watercolors

11. Red Wine

12. Printmaking

13. Art openings with free wine and cheese

14. Netflix

15. My orange fisher price phone

16. Agony and Irony

17. Season 3 of Sunny on DVD

18. Obsession with teeth/flossing

19. My independent study project

20. Golden Corral

21. Friday naps with my mom

22. Brand new covering Oh Comely at Stockton

23. Lou Palou

24. Burt’s Bees

25. Great shows like:

Ting Tings, Radiohead, We Are Scientists, Lemuria, Ataris- hahaha, Los Campesinos!, Alkaline Trio, Pink Razors, and Reggie and the Full Effect’s Last show ever.

26. Bees

27. Hangman

28. Having my tooth pulled

29. Oh no they didn’t

30. Pee Cups



BUMOUTS of 2008:

1. Pee cups

2. Laurel moving away

3. Ware on teeth from excessive amounts of dunkin donuts

4. Season four of Sunny

5. Art History

6. Isobel not responding

7. Jinx L

8. All of the tests and health problems I had to go through this year

9. Anxiety attacks

10. Robert Pattison




That’s it. I am excited for 2009 to get here because I’m curious if it is going to be anything like 2008. The Get Up Kids are coming back which I’m super excited about because I love them with all of my heart.

And that’s it.

I can’t even think of something good to end with but

“…remains sexy while doing so”.




lovelovelove

mandaaaaaaarr

Saturday, December 20, 2008

this is a bayside post.




Saturday 27 December 2008
BAYSIDE
Valencia
and Eyes on the Prize

Hangar 84
Vineland, NJ




so stoaked.
to hell with valencia though.
can do without.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

prints paints and stuff

my crit with blavat went well but i thought it was going to be more of a good job crit than a you need to work on this kind of crit. he said a buncjh of good stuff too but whatevaaaa. he gave me a lot of insight throughout the semester and i think i learned a lot.
printmaking was so much fun-a lot of extra work but fun.
i might take extra printmaking classes just to take them.
and i just got doen talking with Hricko and i asked him if i can apprentice under him over the summer or next semester and he said yes
which is totally rad.
i feel like i can really learn a lot from him-especially when it comes to being precise and clean.
so yeah
thats my day.
im not really all here right now but i guess you already figured that.
now onto the last paper of the semester...
art history :.(
worst.


ps LAUREL COMES HOME IN A FEW DAYS
im so happy i think im going to pee all over her when i see her.
she has no idea.

<3me

Saturday, December 13, 2008

chong-stress.

the past two weeks it has been crunch time for me.

school work has taken over my life COMPLETELY, or at least thats what it feels like and it makes me nothing less than anxious for this next week to be over. i took the first praxis this week- and thank god kev helped me to study for math because i wouldve failed it if we didn't- but yeah. i forget where i was going with that. the praxis, oh yeah...it wasnt too too bad im just glad its over for right now because i have really bad anxiety when it comes to taking big tests like that. i know that sounds kind of silly but i have bad anxiety as is so when it comes to things of that sort-forget it. ima mess. but im glad i passed it now i have to start studying for the next one, prob sometime after the holidays.
more about my week...

cant remember much of it-saturday:ate somm lemons off of the lemon tree and also ate some felaffels at mama mike's house before lighten up and kev almost cried. that was before our hearts came out of our chest when an ambulance came out of nowhere and we almost adopted a boston terrier. a little out of sequence but whatever. sunday:work. monday: night at home watching raymond and the king of queens. tuesday:praxis and splashbox the hedgehog and the movie teeth. ps:thursday i spent a few hours in a print lab just to make one of those huge prints-my crit is on this tuesdaycoming up- all for it to get stuck to the masonite that i was printing from. awesome. i only made one other print and a proof. ughhh this crit is going to be hell. but kev and i ate cheese, crackers, and pears for lunch so im iight with thursday. after the print studio, we went to the crane arts for thier gallery opening that they have every second thursday of the month. it was great for free wine, cheese, and other snacks but besides for the icebox, wasn't feeling too much of the art. but like i said, the icebox was cool. i wish that i had gotten a picture of the shark with the party hat though.

friday was just as crazy-i think we had cheese and pears today for lunch, not thursday. whatever day it was, lunch was delicious. work from 12-5:30 then grabbed some canned ravilois, not as bad as it sounds, and some shrimp rolls. SPEAKING of, its my new kick. shrimp rolls with loads of duck sauce. how unhealthy but oh so tasty. think im just getting it in now because i never used to eat them.so anyway, headed to julia's art show which was really cool. she is going to make a lot of money someday. <3. talked to kel WHO IS BACK and in town which im excited for vendor hotdogs and shopping sprees. kel if you read this lets go shopping in cent cit:)date. kev and i stopped by this art auction but stayed for a half a minute because we couldn't see anything and didn't have any money so it was pointless to be there. picked up somm wine and headed-yet again- to the print studio to meet up with priscilla, manny, ian, and company. i love them a lot. had a little wine and numbered my prints and had fun with the lovelies. it got to be around 11 when julia texted me but i was beat tired so went back to kev's for sleep for a few hours before i had to be up for work at 7am which is where i am now. nothing too exciting, just crazy hectic week. im keeping my fingers crossed for art history because that exam is on monday. YIKES. tonight i asked the girls if they wanted to go out but i might have to cancel, which it seems like im doing a lot lately but i cant fail anymore classes than i already have just to go out. i did that the past two semsters and i cant afford it. its not that i dont want to hangout-because i would love that SOOOO much more than studying, its just everything is catching up with me BUT IT WILL ALL BE OVER BY THIS THURSDAY!!!!

thats my life. in a few paragraphs.

ps im excited for :

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which just came in the mail.
loves me a bateman.
pss. arrested development has taken over my life again and coudn't be happier.
<3

ppssssss: goreman posted this already but whatev. http://springfieldpunx.blogspot.com/2008/11/huzzah-its-arrested-development.html

pppppsss cant wait for christmas this year<3

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

this was an email i just sent to my mom.

i was curious of what causes jaundice so i looked it up.
apparently you cleaned my liver of bilirubin for me with your liver when i WAS IN YOUR WOMB
which i appreciated greatly but it made me not able too poop out my bilirubin and it built up in my skin and thats why i had jaundice.
so i thank your liver because he was only looking out to clean me when i was just a baby
thank you from my organs to yours
and no hard feelings about the whole situation, i poop fine now
i love you mom
love your eldest.





needless to say she thought i was nuts.

Monday, November 24, 2008

sweata sweata go getta

so im back from chicago and i feel like it was exactly what i needed. i've been so stressed out lately that i needed to get away before i went nuts.kev and i had a lot of fun even when we were driving for hours on end. kev's friend melissa was so nice and so were her roommates and it was cool that they let us stay there. we did a bunch of different things and ate a lot of toasted sandwiches and drank a lot of carmel apple ciders, which is now a staple again in my life. i think they think we're both nuts considering we kept talking about mimsys and borgoves hahahaha
but anyway
we left on wednesday night and it took us around 12hours to get there which was great and basically slept all of thursday away. went thrift store shopping but was unsuccessful but kinda was successful considering that was what kept us warm before the show. gaslight anthem played first and they need to get a grip on their set list. they didn't play the song kev and i wanted to hear and covered this eight minute cover song which no one cared about. but they did play some songs from their new cd that i enjoyed-which kev and i were embarrassed to even sing out loud. but overall, i'd say was a bum out. i think kev would've enjoyed it more if andrew was there because i just kept saying how disgusted i was. thrice was next and it was weird seeing them because i thought they fell off a cliff back in 2003. i always saw them in highschool by default and never really cared about them. kev said they just put out four concept EP's that were based off of wind, fire, blah blah basically they want to be a captain planet tribute band.they played for too long even though i didn't mind it as much as i probably sound now. so alkaline went on and they opened up i think with private eye. if not, then they played private eye, whatever i was a little drunk. they played emma which i was surprised because i thought everyone forgot about good mourning. they played a lot from the new record which was awesome because even though its a little poppy, agony and irony is a pretty good record. the only problem i had was that they only played for 20mins. yep, that's it. i guess that's what i get for driving to the middle of the country to see them when they aren't headlining. i was bummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmed times ten. NOT EVEN INCLUDING the fact that matt skiba was wearing more eyeliner than i ever have in my entire life and he was dressed in the color white. white shoes, jeans, shirt-really? and suspenders and a silly hat. i dont know what happened to him. what a gorgeous mess.

ill add more laterrrrr

Sunday, November 16, 2008

so

who wants to go to the MOMA with me?
i want to go again because i didnt get to see everything the last time i went.
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i want to see thingsss plz.
also...
i have been doing nothing at work except for wasting away the hours on the Internet by reading celebrity blogs, quizzes, checking my email and facebook repetitively, and doing everything besides for doing actual school work. im a procrastinator as is though. is there anything else i can do online? i feel so, nonproductive. maybe because i dont really do anything. i wish i worked during the week so the hours didn't drag. my new thing is to google search things, well thats not really new to me, but rather than what im searching...medical things. i cant spit the words out to form a complete sentence sorry. like gout, psychological disorders, and diseases. i dont know if its because im a partial hypochondriac or just because i work in a hospital.but really, thats foul....

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goutly.
getoutly.
gout stool.
F O U L.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

a year later

and i still feel like im questioning things.



















i bet you didn't think your decisions a year ago would still be affecting you or us now.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

posi

so im feeling a little bit better about things than a few days ago.
today i dont feel as terrible as i did on thurs, fri, and yesterday.
everytime i get sick like that i let it take over my life and i feel like i have to reassess everything else thats im my life. its like i cant seem to focus on anything else thats going on besides how and why i became sick. i hope that no one else has to go through this, its the worst pain ever. the kind of pain that wakes you up in the morning and keeps you up at night. ok, but im going to stop there with the complaining because its not worth it. anyway, thats almost over:)
the best thing that happened this week though was that i ended up getting a grant that paid off the rest of my loan for the fall semester. i didnt think i was going to be able to go to school in the spring because of my $3500 out standing balance for this semester. so that means i dont have to get a full time job to try and work off the $3500. and this means i get to keep getting free medicine through temple anddddd i wouldnt have to take a semester off. although, im still going to be set back because i didnt think i would be able to get into my internship because of the money issue but im glad i have the chance to go to school at all. im working on my credit so i hopefully wont have any problems next semester. or at least as bad as i had it for the fall.
so cool right?
so im feeling better, going to school, got medical coverage, wont have to start paying back loans yet, and life is good. no, god is good, life is great. hahaaa was talking about that video from third grade today where i sang that song at communion ridicccc
now next on my list, getting back into shape. went to the drs. on friday and i weighed in at 106 which is awesome considering i dont do anything but eat snacks and take nap-spittin my ryhmes all the time. shout out ot a future eminem on salmon street-yeah, just need to do something though. i need to get rid of this thing around my tummy that i developed when i stopped riding my bike and started dating kev. ahem. but thats what i get for watching the food network all days for days on end.

the count down for chicago is ten days.
im excited because ive never been. i wish i wasnt working on that saturday so we could stay longer. im nervous about taking kevs car though because his transmission is slowly going and my dumb luck, ill be stranded in some empty field in illinois. and then i would cry. a lot. in reality though, if it were to break down, we would probably be in kentucky because kev will think hes right about taking a turn instead of listening to any of the directions.
it should be funnn havent seen alkaline in a few years and seeing them in chicago should be rad
and the little guy is coming with us! splashbox the traveler.he is the best. love that little grump.

gotta get back to studying art history
:/

manda
ps was going through my photobucket
look how gay i was five years ago.
hopefully you cant click on this thing enought to read my shirt.


Saturday, November 8, 2008

haiiiiikus.that dont mean anything

these silly haikus
are what i complete at work
when you are not here:)

cakes are people too
when you look at them underneath
all full of filler.

oh baby please
my heart sinks to my feet
its just you and me.


things you hate the most
are the ones that i call home
to be left unsaid.

yesterday is ours
now is todays tomorrow
further calls my name.

hello little bird
maybe today will be yours
where you can escape:)

when pizzas on a
bagel you can eat pizza
anytime
-ok so that one doesnt fit. but wo cares.

into my pocket
goes everything i need
including my bee.

pockets and buttons
crushed leaves with two dryer sheets
on the walk back home.

cinquian:
journal
personal, descriptive
binding taping layering
personal through application
me

hahahahah
go ahead tell me im a nerd.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

don't pick this one apart because you'll never understand it.

i cant.
youre asking this of me now without even considering where i am in my life right now and who it involves. youre only out to get for yourself and maybe i should'nt be the one to say that...considering the facts. but its a lot harder for me to answer this question than it has to answer many.
[i'm aware that this doesn't make sense to a single person but to me]
i know what i'm talking about and this is my response to what you sent me.
i can only do what i think is right and i know im not sure right now what that is exactly, not to mention how i messed up already, but i'm trying to salvage what is left

of me
of us
of...us.

i cant give up yet
even though-
even though sometimes i want to.
i have already lost so much, i dont want to lose anymore.
you're probably thinking lose what?
and maybe thats half of my problem.
or all of my problem.




full of conjunctions i know.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

cool.

i just wrote the longest blog ever and it got deleted.
heres some pictures.
i really need to get my digital camera back in action.
hate not having one.
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phillies parade

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bfb baybeee
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maggie and i at the parade.

the blog was about this insane week. maybe when i get more patience and time ill try posting it again.

this was the lost blog. thats not even finished. whateves

its been a crazy week
and a lot of fun
the beginning of the week is a little blurry. tuesday printmaking, hangout with ryz for some unexpected awesomeness of food-AND IT SNOWED FOR THE FIRST TIME!! it wasnt too much and looked beautiful. i love when you look up and it falls slow just enough to catch it on your tounge. ps <3maggies song

wednesday was jana maganas birthday:) so after kev and i got our fabric for our halloween costumes her and i went out to 12 steps down to watch the last innings of the game. after only two beers in each of us we proceeded to run, yes run, to broad street. (lawl:two words, SHIN SPLINTS.) go figure. when im drunk i can do anything.we wanted to yell so we got out on the median-we were one of the first people who made it out to broad street mind you-and realized we started yelling with these people who were supporting obama. i was like, im not trying to do this right now. wrong kind of yelling. so then we ran down broad street some more and ended up running into justin and company. he gave us a treat and then more people started to flood the streets. later on kev somm and maggie teamed up and we walked around some more and people were going nuts. nakedness, drunks, broken things, riots, bonfires, fireworks, and confetti. so much fun. oh and subway walls hahahahhaaa. public pee count that night:four. total picture count: 17, or so.
thursday=hurt.

havent felt this sick in a while. had to get up and head to crane arts to visit the galleries and my printmaking teachers studio. his studio is huge and p e r f e c t. i have no idea how an artist could be so clean, neat, and organized. and he has an awesome view of the city. i guess you get the penthouse suite when you own the place. then went out to lunch with ryan and priscilla at paradise. mmmmm yeah its a must. then rushed a paper out went to art ed, ate somm EXPENSIVE ass chinese that bummed me out, and more work, then kev and i played with sb t hh for a bit and retired early.
friday went home saw my brother with an aircast and wanted to squish him. now both of my siblings are in boots and both are now immobile. i know im next with my luck. but anyway, someone covered my two hours that i was supposed to go in for work so i figured id head to the parade right from nj. parked at thompson and columbia walked to the el which wasnt running so i hopped on the 15 and took it to broad. orange line wasnt running so i walked to city hall from broad and girard. i dont know why i didnt walk up 13th because i got stuck at city hall literally shoulder to shoulder. i never wanted to punch as many people as i did when i realized i couldnt move. no one had service so i couldnt even call jana or maggie to let them know where i was. but anyway to make matters even better some guy who was about two heads in front of me couldnt hold his liquor and threw up all over the guy next to him and even on the little boy in front of him. ughhh YUCKKKK i was llike NOPE and got out of there asap, the opposite way duhh. once i got away from the 15th and market area and jumped on 13th i just went right to the cop shop where i accidentally ran into maggie which was awesome because phones still werent working. so jana was lost from us for a little bit but then found.


i was able to get in touch with my parents who were at broad and biglar with my little john and natacat. so we made it all the way down broad,surrounded by some of phillys most interesting people.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

you're not mine and im' not yours.

i don't need a title.





they know they have you anyway.
locked, stuck, and trapped.

Monday, October 27, 2008

all of your mimsys

were borgoves.
LAUREL I DONT KNOW WHAT THAT EVEN MEANS
but i cant stop saying it.
with a british accent.
but yeah.
so this is what i did last night...

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as tired as i was i managed to make some goofy stuff. watercolors are actually fun.
ive always hated them but its fun to mess around with...
i really like displaced color and i think i might do a watercolor for my project for blavat.
we will see.
i obviously wait til the last minute for these things. aka due tomorrow.
iiight have to get back to reading about the silencing of homophobia in classrooms.
whateverrrr
<3manda

ps ignore that stupid alien thing.
i was making fun of someone and thats what i get because then i ruined that doodle of the big guy.
im an asshole.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

wake up

im boreddddd

somebody.
anybody.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

my teeth feel like they are rotting right out of my head.

i just drank an xtragranditall-or whatever starbucks' sizes are-carmel apple cider

and as delicious as it was...i feel like i should be spitting out a tooth soon or
e x p l o d i n g
i hope i lose the teeth before i explode because then i can make a necklace out of teeth and floss.
or a keychain.




ok really, i have to write this midterm. enough stalling.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

haven't posted in a while but nothing is too new.
past week has been hectic with school work and midterms and projects. i havent been really making art lately. the other day i had ther perfect opportunity to paint and once i got everything set up, i couldnt even think of what i wanted to do. i had too many thoughts in my head but nothing was processing the way i wanted them to. i have projects due for blavat but i feel like thats more like school work. everything is working out what seems to be well with my independent study and its a different direction for me but i like what its rooted by. i know lawl is prob the only person who reads this and i dont think i told her what im doing for it...so im going to do it now...im recreating pages of my journal-old and new-but using different materials that represent what the entries mean. my proposal was obviously a lot cooler and more descriptive but whatever. i already made one project and the next thing im doing is a triptic of an entry with an image projecting on top of it. its something completely different and i dont know how much ill like it once its done but itll be something different for me.

anyway what else. hmmmm
oh i made up a livejournal name? just so i can make posts on ohnotheydidnt and postsecret. tell me im not a dork and a half. it makes sense and i know ill prob only use it at work. or not.
my profile name is flossed. because i like flossing. duhhhh
so ghey

ive also started observing for my art ed class. thats a lot of fun. for my practicum i have to observe a classroom for 2 hours a week for ten weeks. i wanted to teach highschool so i figure id observe the little kids thinking id might like it...and i really just want to mush these kids. they are unbelievably adorable. the teacher that im supposed to be tkaing notes from has yet to give me something good to take away from her teaching but the third and fifth graders are the best.
end of story.

ok time to get out of work.
later gators.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

so bored and cant sleep

so you cant say i didnt warn you...

Monday, September 1, 2008

and im grinding my teeth again.

i feel so overwhelmed.
i know its annoying to complain to other people so i decided to put my whining up on the internet because whoever reads it...its thier choice.

im getting in that mood again i can feel it...
the one that i get from time to time where nothings right and i get sick of myself.i cant stand it. if i could make myself not feel this way, i would. im so sick of everything and i dont even know what 'everything' is exactly. im frustrated with school, bills, friends, work, and how much time that i dont have to get everything done. the thing is that i have the time but all i have been feeling lately is tired. i feel like ive worn myself down and i dont know from what. i talk about all of these things that i have to take care of-and theyre all important-yet at the same time im still in the same spot as when i got back from georgia. i have no idea what i do with my time anymore. i miss my friends that i havent seen in forever...i feel like nothing is the same with what it used to be between us. i dont even feel like the same person sometimes. i feel so disconnected from who i used to be and i dont even know how it happened. the most frustrating part is that i dont know how to get back to feeling myself. i go out because if im home bymyself i drive myself crazy to the point where i feel like im losing it but at the same time i dont spend any time at home. i dont paint anymore, i dont write anymore, and fuck up at what little amount of important things that i have to take care of...i dont have any amanda time. i know if i set time aside that i wouldnt even do those things. i would just sleep. maybe i should go back on the medicine just til i get back to my old self because its been too long. when i get this way its not a thing i can control. its like this feeling takes me over and i feel nothing but anxious about everything. its almost been a year since i lost amanda and it seems like i dont know any other way of getting her back with out getting help because its literally breaking me down. i dont want to have pains in my jaw, sleepless nights, panic or anxiety attacks...



i just want to be myself.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

its early and im rambling. nothing new.

i havent written anything in a long time. too long.

my journal has become a stranger and anyone who knows me probably wouldnt believe that-

but anyway im using this to keep up with lawl::love:: and myself i guess.



so im sitting, here at work, bored to shit and all i can think about is the massive amounts of sugar that i put in my coffee. im aching to brush my teeth. ive developed an addiction to dental hygiene- its werid but i guess its not a bad addiction. i floss every second i get the chance. i swear ill be so pissed if i go to the dentist come november and i have a cavity. SO PISSED. im trying to get kev into doing it too considering he hasnt been to the dentist in years and i think hes picking up my habit-which i knew he would because we love picking, pulling, and popping things. im officially a dirtball. hahah

this week has been nuts...

i feel like i have been doing so much but really all i have been doing is taking naps. ive been sick for two weeks now with strept throat which i just found out on tuesday?my doctor is an idiot. wanted me to spend thirty dollars on medicated cough drops. fuck that. bitch needs to get a grip.

the rest of the week ive been taking care of stupid stuff like family visits(<3>
but thats pretty much it. i think kev and i are getting a hedgehog on sunday WHICH i am suuuuuper excited about. i have been wanting one for the longest time. we went to walmart last night to purchase hedgehog related items. best. iiight back to work.

laurel- you better be ready for some wifey action:)


lovelovelove